****Inspired by what I have been learning from Frances Chan’s book Forgotten God, Uncomfortable and Inconvenient posts are my way of documenting my successes, failures and progress as I work to be aware of things in my everyday life that God wants me to do. My desire is to take an active role in LIFE, not just PASSIVELY exist through the days on my calendar.****
I think a lot of us need to forget about ‘God’s will for my life.’ God cares more about our response to His Holy Spirit’s leading today, in this moment, than about what we intend to do next year. In fact, the decisions we make next year will be profoundly affected by the degree to which we submit to the Spirit right now, in today’s decisions. – Frances Chan in Forgotten God
As I’ve been trying to actively respond to things in my life that I can’t file in my mind as anything other than nudges from the Holy Spirit calling me into action, I’ve been learning something.
I have been learning the more I pay attention to the things I should do, the more annoyingly aware I am of my failures. And that, my friends, sucks. When I am not paying close attention to the “good” things I should be doing, I’m not so aware of the times I don’t follow through. I can just happily walk through my routine of life pushing those little nudges aside. And you know the great thing about that? Other people don’t know I’m screwing up. God isn’t telling my friends that he wants me to call so-and-so or say yes to an outreach opportunity that is out of my comfort zone or to stretch myself in an area of service. They have no idea when I don’t do it. So maybe I should just give up, right? What’s the use when I know there is failure on the horizon? Who’s monitoring me and grading me on whether or not I do what I’m supposed to do? Nobody on this earth.
But God is, and He knows I’m going to fail. And for some reason He keeps hanging in there with me anyway. And I think I’d rather struggle through these periodic stinky feelings of failure than to just coast through life. Because when I do succeed (even in those private, nobody else knows kind of successes,) I am reminded of how worth it it is to respond to the nudge.
The following is a link to a Beth Moore story that is great encouragement not to give up. You never know when God might use an act of obedience in a big way.