Kim Harms

Life Reconstructed

Amidst the Scattered Legos

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Sometimes they still need me. There are moments when these boys of mine who are growing up before my eyes still need me.

And I don’t mean need as in – need me to fix them dinner, or need me to help with homework, or need me to find that certain thing that they know with 100% certainty that they put back in its place but for some reason it isn’t there anymore.

No, I mean the need when they are so stressed out about something they can’t even put it into words that it keeps them up at night or the need that comes from a disturbing dream that feels a little too real when it wakes them in the dark. The need that has them plodding to my room in the quiet hours past midnight.

The need to be comforted. The need to feel safe. Though I treasure my sleep, I treasure my children more. So I follow them back to their rooms. I pray over their sweet heads and I spread a blanket on the floor amidst the scattered Legos. But I don’t sleep. I listen. And soon I hear the slow rhythmic breathing of slumber.

It amazes me that God has allowed my presence to be so powerful. That simply knowing I’m there can slow my son’s adrenaline charged pulse to the unhurried breathing of a child in peaceful sleep. What a gift I have been given.

There will be a day not too many years down the road when they will not be sleeping within the safety of these four walls. I pray then they will trust the True Comforter to calm their pounding hearts. The One who is not limited by space or time. The One who has blessed me with the temporary job of protector and comforter.

Until that day, I choose to cherish my role in their lives and treasure each opportunity to love them even if it means sacrificing hours in my cozy bed to sleep on their floor amidst the scattered Legos.

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1 Corinthians 13:4-8 Love is patient. Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast,  it is not proud. It is not rude. It is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Loved does not delight in evil but rejoices in the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

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What about you…ever sleep on Legos? or maybe on some Bakugons? Or Bey Blades? Or Matchbox Cars? Sometimes love is physically painful 😉

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Author: Kim Harms

I am a contributor at CT Women (previously known as Today's Christian Woman where I was a regular contributor as well). I blog monthly at inspireafire.com and have freelanced for a variety of publications including Chicken Soup for the Soul, Guideposts, Thriving Family and Creation Illustrated. Cancer made an unwelcome visit in my breast in January 2016, and I am now working on a book about breast reconstruction after having gone through the insane process myself. My incredible husband of 18 years, Corey, is my biggest writing cheerleader and together we are having a ball raising our three growing boys; Carter 15, Owen 14 and Lewis 10.

3 thoughts on “Amidst the Scattered Legos

  1. I write this while my eyes are blurred with tears. so true, so true…breathe in all the sweetness of these times. Even the Lego sleeping is a gift from God–as uncomfortable as it may be.

  2. I have memories that are very similiar to this, but I don’t think I ever slept on Legos.

  3. Tori – Knowing you has helped me treasure my kids more. Just knowing that it does end. They do grow up and move away. It makes me want to look for ways to really enjoy this phase of life, even the things that aren’t so enjoyable.
    Mom – I still remember waking up and being scared of the dark.

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