He sings most nights. People find it cute that my youngest lulls himself to sleep with song. But I know those melodies are God reminding me, “Enjoy this one and remember what I did for you.” Years ago, my best friend and I found out we were pregnant within weeks of each other. I was thrilled that we could go through pregnancy together and knew our babies would be buddies. Then I started bleeding. Gripped with fear, Corey and I pleaded with God to let us keep that baby. But as time passed we realized his answer was, “No. Not…